7.29.14

I always wanted to belong.

I always prayed that you see me as your own. 

An outsider, trying to fit in. 

Is this how you saw me ever since the beginning? 

So hurt by your words, I don’t deserve how you treat me.

I’m tired of explaining when you’re not even listening.

Yet I am called to love you.

Even when it’s hard to do.

Lord, help me. 

Cover me with Your grace. 

Please let him see. 

Help me reflect Your light in me. 

I’m often asked what I’m thinking about, and I end up not telling. It’s not that I don’t want to. I just don’t know how.
I always think. A lot. And even though I do want to share my thoughts, I can only give a small portion of what’s actually in my head. I guess that’s the INFP in me acting out. So in an effort to answer you, here it is; my thoughts plus a few more I can’t quite keep track of. 

I’m often asked what I’m thinking about, and I end up not telling. It’s not that I don’t want to. I just don’t know how.

I always think. A lot. And even though I do want to share my thoughts, I can only give a small portion of what’s actually in my head. I guess that’s the INFP in me acting out. So in an effort to answer you, here it is; my thoughts plus a few more I can’t quite keep track of. 

Age does(n't) matter

  • So I went to the office on a weekend to take some off my work load. I went in really casual clothing.
  • J.T.: Look at you. You're so cute and you're already 26.
  • Me: hehe *smiles sheepishly
  • Mabel: Yeah, she's older than me and she looks like she's just 18.
  • Erin: I wonder how I'll look like when I'm 26.
  • I don't know if I should be happy that I still look 18 despite my age. For some reason, I do hope they see me more as a "lady" than a "teen". Oh well.

6.8.14

I no longer want to talk it out. It’s pointless. Do you honestly want to hear my side? Or have you already made up your mind?

It leaves me with nothing more to say; it’s going to be a one - sided conversation anyway. I’m tired of listening and always the one yielding.